fury!!
i thought it was best to lock myself at home tonight.
i am SO PISSED OFF. why? i have NO idea. and this pisses me off even more.
my heart rate is going crazy and my body temperature is very very annoying.
i woke up and suddenly everything is pissing me off.
i didn't realize it till i got to the lab, but also everyone was pissing me off. all i felt was people's negativity, which has always been there but it doesn't affect me usually. i just wanted to walk around invisible and hoped that no-one would stop me or small talk me cos i would just freeze on them or start screaming or crying of rage or if i totally let myself go i would have the pleasure of pulling their heads away from their bodies. even the thought cools me off a bit.
and then people are just talking about civil "issues" in my lebanon as if they're talking about a new sushi shop that might be opening at the corner. just leave it alone! let it be, please, just back off.
i mean normally i try to control my aggressive behavior (which was really out of control a couples of yrs ago before i decided to take action because i was "scaring" some people..).
but not today. maybe it's my hormones, i really think these guys control a LOT of things.
i want to go to bed and disappear.
i am SO PISSED OFF. why? i have NO idea. and this pisses me off even more.
my heart rate is going crazy and my body temperature is very very annoying.
i woke up and suddenly everything is pissing me off.
i didn't realize it till i got to the lab, but also everyone was pissing me off. all i felt was people's negativity, which has always been there but it doesn't affect me usually. i just wanted to walk around invisible and hoped that no-one would stop me or small talk me cos i would just freeze on them or start screaming or crying of rage or if i totally let myself go i would have the pleasure of pulling their heads away from their bodies. even the thought cools me off a bit.
and then people are just talking about civil "issues" in my lebanon as if they're talking about a new sushi shop that might be opening at the corner. just leave it alone! let it be, please, just back off.
i mean normally i try to control my aggressive behavior (which was really out of control a couples of yrs ago before i decided to take action because i was "scaring" some people..).
but not today. maybe it's my hormones, i really think these guys control a LOT of things.
i want to go to bed and disappear.
posted by Laila K at
22:09
12 Comments:
hmmmm... pulling their heads away from their bodies???!!
ie to guillotine them?
do they know what's hovering around them, these poor unsuspecting souls, Marie Antoinette?
NB i think hormones make us do all the bad things that we do, us women i mean.
reading yesterday's mood then today's..i would say you are hormonal. as far as people go, they deserve it. this is exactly what i want to say to the prejudged, preformulated, preheated little lunch time opinions that people have about our internal affairs. back off and leave it alone. calm down ya benet, tomorrow will be better..
good night, and don't forget your Midol!
issam...shhhh!!
mirvat, i think i'm over-reacting. i so badly want things to be right back there that i go crazy whenever i have a feeling that it's not going so great.
I thought women never admit that they possibly faintly ever so slightly be... "hormonal"!
And funny, because if we suggest something resembling this in a any way shape or form... well bad retaliation would follow..
Anyway relax, it's Friday..
G.
I have to say something that might sound nasty considering your state of mind, but it's itching and... well, could you use capital letter when obligatory! including "i" and beginning of sentences. thank you very much.
Laila,
it's friday already! I just remembered Tarraf's TGIF in Bio 201....
Hope you're feeling better today.
Great blog and amazing poetry...i didn't know that side of you :)
kantaro, feeling much better today
lyne, i actually didn't know that these "phrases" are considered poetry until i was told so a few days ago by gus, who advised me to "stay away from poetry", but thanks and visit again! tarraf..yeyyyyy. remember the one about the cow who's "in heat" and how he twists his hand to feel the uterus?? ewww!
gus, "btw", one "adv" of having "ur" own blog is actually playin' by "ur" own rules, so no, "i" can't.
good one laila. i have to agree with lyne, i didn't know the sensitive side of you either. gus doesn't like poems in general, it seems. he hates mine too. even the ones i've written for him!. i loved your poems, keep writing. and gus dear i only freak out because you say that i'm being hormonal towards everything i do.
Oh my god (Ra, blessed be His name)! Nadine told the same story about Tarraf when she visited last, so he really sticks his hand... Too early for visuals like that! ewww in deed Laila.
Gus
wala yhimmik,
i'm pissed off mitlik!
i'm also pissed off now. let's have a therapy session
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