so..

i keep waking up with this massive energy, an urge to do anything and everything..as if i'm gonna disappear or die soon. it's like i know i dont have enough time to do everything i want to do and i panic. but surely i dont really buy any of this crap (that you have a feeling that something bad is gonna happen), so..what the fuck?

i am

a slut.

and you are

my reason.

confession of the day

i'm loving it!!

confession of the day

im living a quarter-life crisis. there i said it. fuck!

horror story of the day

i am wearing so many colors i look like my mom's kitchen towel

today i am

so alive i cant breathe
dark chocolate and raspberries
snow flakes and striped green mittens
one large latte please and dreams of a ridiculous man
eleven yellow tulips and warm brown uggs i could swear are olive green

explosions of colors in my head
of screaming longings for faces i know too well
of a million stories begging to be told
of music and distant suns and the taste of salty water
of fresh green almonds and bedtime stories
of pages turned and secret visits on early silent mornings

orgasm(s) of the day

mochi. and i mean, MULTIPLE ones. i CANNOT believe i have wasted (almost) 29 years of my life without having tried it.

and watching the lunar eclipse with an ecstatic/totally idiotic smile on my face (after running around in circles searching for the damn thing!!)

and speaking of orgasms, they finally found it!

thought of the day

i think my ipod has feelings for me

from my veins to the sea

news of the day

apparently i have a new roommate: his name is cosmo and he's a mouse.

on the origin of species

an amazing overview!

warm light on a winter's day

Campaign to free fellow blogger Tariq Biasi

Free Tariq campaign homepage
sign the petition
The Statement of the Syrian Bloggers to release the blogger Tariq Biasi

thought of the day

god bless foundation!

fond of y.o.u.

intermission (3)

Left Behind- Zero 7 (feat. José González)

ps. our brain is closed for maintenance for a while (obviously). enjoy the videos. both were directed/animated by Adam Bizanski. the whole setting of Pink Bullets video is created with paper mache and animated by hand. i love it!

intermission (2)

Pink Bullets- The Shins

intermission (1)

i just realized that

the guy whom i work with reminds me of my grandmother. is that too horrible?

breaking news of the day

wake up the children and release the pigs from the barn: i. am feeling. GOOD today. sunshine and smiling-back-to-strangers and dancing-in-the-lab-at-7-am and looking-forward-to-the-weekend kinda stuff!
james mercer: marry me.

today i am

a glass of water.
ice cold.

what?

secret of the day

as i was in the bus on my way to work this morning i realized that i forgot...my backpack!!! i kid you not!!

for gaza

today i am

a salad.

tea

dear diary

you seem so down today. not good. i wish you were there with us. you would have wanted to write down each and every second we spent together. our moments smelled like fresh flannel, tasted like grapefruit and sounded like amy winehouse. and armand melies. and joshua's today.

one morning we were having one of our little wars and i frowned and said 'i wanna go home! now!' he was so happy to hear this that he immediately answered 'would you stay for lunch?', with such an adorable look that i just 'had to' say yes. we got stuck in my most favorite traffic jam and most precious whining session of all time, before ending up with the smurfs. and guess who joined us! yes. marvin ofcourse. but guess who else! no. no. no! ....(eyes rolling)...yes! olive oil!!...they were both sitting with us at (on) the table. it was so cool i thought (embarrassing he thought), all of us sitting there looking so dorky and just simply..'happy' i think is the word. dont you think?

anyway (anyway!), enough for you for now, and i have to go. so cheer up a little and show me a twenty nine. it aint gonna rain forever.

neverwhere

tlayopi

event of the day

snowstorm! yey!!!

oh and apparently it's 'Bush day' in some parts of the planet. hahaha. bush day. imagine! hi, happy bush day. yeah happy bush day to you too. may all your days be- ok i'll stop now..that was mean. i'm losing my mind i think.

of sunny days and panic stations

shedaredtolookatthemtodayshethoughtshewasfineandshejustwantedtoseehisfacetoseehis
smilesoshesatdownanditwasokatfirstbutthenithappenedshecouldfeelitbuildingupslowlythe
heartbeatstheshortbreaththeshakinghandsbutshethoughtitwouldpassshetriedtocalmdown
shekeptremindingherselfthatthisiswhatlifeisallaboutthememoriesthemomentsthewarmth
butitwastoolateitwastoolatetostopitandfinallyithitherlikethunderanorgasmoflossanger
sorrowandallthepainintheworldflowedintoherveinsshecouldntbreatheanymorebutsheletit
consumehersheletitoutallofitoutandslowlyshecalmeddownshecouldfeelitleavingherbody
andsherealizedthatshehasnotfeltthisgoodinsuchalongtimeandshehopedthatshecould
sleeptonightshehopedthatshecouldsleepbecauseshehasntsleptindaysshekeepswakingup
shekeepswakingupandshekeepsdreamingthathessleepingrightnexttoherbuthenshewakes
upandsheremembersthatitwasnothingbutadreamjustlikeintheseainsidewhenhedreamsof
theseahedreamsofeverythingthatwillneverhappenagain

caress

mood of the day

grumpy,wet and unimpressed
with a hint of madness repressed

boy in the sun