Sunday, February 19, 2006

leavin' on a jetplane

another journey into the unknown. not really, i've been there twice, love it!
i should be preparing and reading, and practicing my presentation right now, but i just can't.
i'm indifferent. i don't really care whether they take me or not. i mean i'll be disappointed if one or both labs say thanks but no thanks, but it's not like i stress out or hyperventilate when i imagine the possibility. i used to, but i dont anymore.
i wonder why. right now i'm exhausted and sleepy, and have to wake up at 5 am, i hate that. could be it. or it might be the stress of the end of the "student life" haven, facing real life, and with it come real responsibilities and real unkowns and moving and leaving ur friends and having to make new friends. now i'm hyperventilating. but this is supposed to be exciting!!
all i'm excited about is buying that digital camera i have my eyes on, and meeting some people i haven't seen for a while, and i love boston bagels.
u can wish me luck if you want to.. or not. whatever.
don't miss me too much..
"don't know when i'll be back again.."

12 Comments:

Blogger Fouad said...

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11:15 PM  
Blogger Laila K said...

sounds more like dark chocolate to me..havent had one in weeks!
thanks for the dazzling wishes..now that's what i call motivation.

11:38 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

oh my god Hesham? is that you? wow, I almost didn't recognize you but come on, you can come up with a better name than Kantaro Juve.

4:06 AM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Laila,

I hope you will get this postdoc, but I'm afraid that the only reason you are wanting it is the shallow reason that you, your mom, and almost every Lebanese person believes in... the Harvard name. If the only reason you want to postdoc at Harvard is because you want to go to Harvard, then you really should reconsider where you place worth in this life. But if you truely want to postdoc for the love of science and furthering ur exploration of research, and perhaps establishing your own research program in the future, then all the power to you. I love you too much to ever wish you anything but the best, so best wishes, but please don't be shallow, I think much higher of you than that.

4:12 AM  
Blogger Laila K said...

dear cool kantaro,

thanks for sharing ur experience with me
ur right after a while its hard to say where you belong, maybe you start having 1st 2nd and 3rd homes?
l.

6:27 AM  
Blogger Laila K said...

issam,
you can be such a bitch sometimes, i love you too..

first of all, you know that i applied all over the place. and if i can do good research in a beautiful city at a great place, the hell i would.

second of all, i dont like it when people generalize "almost every lebanese"...

i want to postdoc in a good place, how does this make me shallow?

i love research, how does this make me shallow?

i chose to postdoc poor and penniless (unlike "patenting" where ur going where money is one of the reasons), how does this make me shallow?

why r u running away from the truth? you're one of the most passionate people about their research that i know..

and hesham didnt travel for uni for 5 years (more like 3), and i love "kantaro juve" its so sexy
but anyway hisho if that's really u ur sooooo adorable, unlike that jerk cousin of ours.

having said that, i know you wish me all the best, so please keep on saying what's on ur mind, who knows, u might be right sometimes :)
6:00 AM

7:02 AM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Good luck Laila!! I hope everything works for the best! For sure it is tough to take decisions that will change your life a lot but as long as you know what you want you should go for it!

10:43 AM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

oh Laila nice speech but give me a break, you know what I'm saying and that it's true in most cases. And the reason I ask you that is because I find it odd that you'd apply to every place in the world and yet only get 2 interviews at Harvard and nowhere else. I'm not a bitch, I just tell it how it is. So chill out, and kick ass on your presentations (but I'm still not convinced).

As to me being passionate about research, sure I am, I'm also passionate about money, about food, about wine, about cars, about travelling, philosophy, reading, and many other things... I just had to rearrange my priorities...

And it is Hesham, just a lot more sophisticated than we ever cared to accept. Juve = Jeventis, his favorite soccer team... Kantaro = his favorite show.

12:56 PM  
Blogger Laila K said...

these r the only two invitations i got (sucks doesnt it), is it my problem that they're both from harvard?? i also had a phone interview at washington U and it went v well
kantaro you're just amaaaazing
mp thanks for the wishes!

6:27 PM  
Blogger rouba said...

Best of luck laila; if you're nervous in the interviews imagine them aaaall naked and vulnerable.
aaand, there's always Wash U and "Meet me in St Louis"!
ok this is becoming very corny (no pun intended from farmland)so i will stop right there..:)

12:24 AM  
Blogger jimmy said...

follow ur dreams.
don't ever stop.

4:31 PM  
Blogger Fouad said...

I know when I'll be back again, soon :)

12:00 PM  

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