3:32 am
2 half pills later
nothing
the pain is back
sharp
pulsating
i turn to the other side
another shot
radiating down my leg now
try the other side
i freeze
this is not happening
the more i move the more horrible it gets the more i cant lay still
i stare at the ceiling now
what a messed up piece of shit
no way in hell i'm going through this again
i suddenly remember calls i urgently need to make
first thing tomorrow
fuck
my back is killing me
i look away
boxes all over the place
i hate them
my life
in boxes
a snapshot of how it will always be
looking for something i'll probably never find
what am i looking for exactly?
i have no fucking idea.
what a retard.
i stare at the ceiling.
nothing.
nothingness.