yesterday today and tomorrow

wake up
i dont want to
check email
make coffee mmm its amazing
look outside-it's sunny today-so what
think for you
mederma on scar
get dressed- the usual-blue jeans black shirt
surprisingly not sick of those jeans they look good
check blogs- that one is like a movie
books-molecular biology of the cell or developmental biol? no mol biol is too heavy
cant forget my pen this time- the one i stole last time we met-it smells good
iPOD on-wake up and smell the coffee
sunglasses on-no eye contact please
library-kids happy kids gorgeous kids-what am i doing here
check time
read
you again
check time
lunch- alone- you
how does the nueral tube form again- shit i just read that- fuck
check email- what's wrong with her she's too hyper
library
check time
dream of you in a song- smile- i miss you and i know that its impossible how can i miss you when i dont even
check time
check time
walk home- happy people
i keep thinking of how it would be with you how stupid am i
close my apartment door, NOW i'm good
turn music on- celia cruz
should go dancing soon release it all
what am i defending exactly?
must find a way to memorize those structures
check email
check blogs- this one is like the dream i'll never have, that one is just too much
dinner? there's olives but no bread
phone
blog
phone
chat
sex and the city-i think i'm miranda
phone
shower- close my eyes and let go now i'm happy
i'm in love with my moisturizer
mederma on scar
try to sleep
cant
dont think of her now
cant
try
think of him
cant
he haunts me
only half a pill today
tomorrow i'll try without
ok
ok
wake up