Oh crap...

Back to real life..

As I was on the way back on the train I thought let's check my messages, the first one was cute from Dr. Ghoussoub asking me where the hell I am, hello?? told you I'm going to Windsor!have some coffee! the second was from my supervisor asking me to call him asap. As soon as I hear his voice my heart drops and my stomach turns...I think that my paper might be rejected but at this point it's just a distant thought and I'm acting very cool about it eating my red starburst..call call call no one's home, finally he picks up and my stomach starts turning again, and sure enough, we got the boot! he tell me "but they really liked it in general it's just that..." and my insides turn and turn.. asks me to go meet him tomorrow morning to talk about it.

I come home and look at the reviews, I feel like vomiting immediately! one of them actually wrote: "it doesn’t help that the text is ridden with acronyms and jargon"...what the hell? and I thought I was the queen of prose..oh well..I had to look up "jargon" and "acronym" cos at that point I was still in denial..

so it's either that I'm going back to benchwork for a while or I'm submitting somewhere else. oh, now that I write this down it's suddenly clear to me that anyways i have to do more experiments..oh crap..

all I want to do is jump into my cozy bed covers and eat nutella and watch my sitcoms. I mean what is reality? shouldn't I be able to tune in wherever I want whenever I want? why NOT??

ok I'm starting to hallucinate now, a mixture of lack of sleep and food (I'm starting a very strict diet..tomorrow, really) and plans and love life and money and..

tuning out...3...2...1...

Roadtrip

I decided to come visit my family in Windsor for a few days, I guess this is the only time I'll get to do that...The weather is really nice in Windsor, it's so nice to be among relatives for a change..

I took the train here, which takes around 9 hours from Montreal, which gave me time to reflect on a lot of issues.

So what is next after Hamas won over the elections? what does this mean for the middle east, peace process, and for Lebanon? Will Hamas be calming down since they're now in office, or will the sudden gain of power make them more fanatic? where is the financial support for this group coming from and should it be the frist thing to be eliminated as a major step for restarting peace negotiations? doesnt it sound a bit suspicious that all of a sudden Hamas is leading? maybe it's a US/Israeli conspiracy :)

I'll have to see what the experts say on that, but it obviously has to wait a few days

I watched Transamerica with my cousin yesterday, very good movie, Felicity Huffman (Desperate Housewives) is amazing.

Paradise Now

This afternoon I went to see Paradise Now, and no not because it won the Golden Globe, I really wanted to see it earlier. Since I finished writing my thesis I have a bit of time on my hands..
I have to say that it's one of my favorite movies already. Directed by Hany Abu-Assad, it is a simple story of two best friends on their journey to becoming suicide bombers. Both of them want to do it, but do they know why? and if they have any doubts, do they really have a choice? Is there a choice? These questions are dealt with by 3 main characters: Said (so gorgeous) who seems skeptical and acts beautifully throughout the movie, Khaled who seems so confident but nothing is what it seems, and Suha, the rich daughter of a martyr with noble values with little practical use. Beautiful movie, especially the finale. Definitely a must see. What did you think?